Writing and posting here is my cleansing ritual, my catharsis, a way to purge all the sadness and anguish that comes with intense grief. It is not about my journey to a better place or how I found love again after losing my spouse, as many blogs written by widows are.  Although I hope some of that comes through the writing, it isn't the focus or even the intention.  All of the things here are about emotions, feelings, coping, remembering.   Maybe someday I will be able to write about how I got past all the pain and grief of losing the person who meant the world to me but that day isn't now.  If you don't want to read about an incredible and real love story, then this blog isn't for you.  And it isn't for anyone else anyway. It is for me...and for Dave.