This blog has been, and continues to be, a labor of love for me. I am struggling to survive the grief and loneliness that I have been left with since my beloved husband passed away in March. Writing down all these feelings, thoughts, just the remembering helps me feel close to him. Writing helps me focus my energies on the good memories, instead of dwelling so much on the sadness. This is what gets me through the day. This is the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with and it isn't getting any easier but it isn't quite the knife in the heart it was six months ago.